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It is with much anticipation and after much thought, discussion, consideration, review, soul-searching, deliberation, and so forth that I have decided to set my sights firmly on the move back to Los Angeles, CA.

After half a year in PA and half a year in Ohio, neither Tristan or I have been satisfied with each others hometowns. Granted, as many have said, we haven’t given it time. But why should we when we already know what LA is like and more importantly, that we BOTH like it? Granted we didn’t have Lee there when lived there last, but a number of our friends out there have been having kids, while still finding work and time to play; it can be done and it will only be that much better with Lee.

There’s so much more opportunity and competition there; people go after their dreams. In big ways. And that’s largely what we’re looking at. Lee is part of our dream. But we both have others and it seems best, on most counts, to realize them there.

Admittedly, it’s going to be tough for me personally, on some levels, to head west again. I’ve held on to some pretty old dreams in PA and with another move west (my 3rd), it will be just another step away from them. Especially difficult, will be leaving my blood family behind again. Now that I’ve crested 30-yrs of age, it’s become even more clear to me how little time we have with each other in one lifetime.

But, many new plans originated in LA though and revolve around it or the west coast in general (yes, the spirit of the west is still quite alive and well . Plus, with age comes an increasingly strong dislike for the cold and wet weather.

So in maybe another two weeks, maybe more, maybe less…we’ll be back in La La land. Stay tuned.
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Update 1.6.10: We’re back in LA (have been for over 3-wks and it’s great!).

I always love analysis and especially when it comes to personality-like tests involving ones name, hands or other personal artifacts. So I’ve been eyeing up one of the current FB apps/games/quizzes and finally got around to doing one. Here’s the text I wrote for it and a snapshot of the results:

I want to succeed so profoundly it shakes the core of humanity. Or at least myself. I expect great things from those I love and respect and even greater things from myself. There is no room for failure but failing is part of this success. I keep narrowing my focus to nothing, everything, nothing. And repeat. Tomorrow I will try again. And again.

Sometime last week I started resurrecting the old outdoor adventure company, well at least its services anyway.

I started working at what had been called Schuylkill River Canoe & Tube, then Valley Forge Outdoors, then Hidden River Adventures, and what was to become Rivertribe, at the age of 16, in the summer of 1995. I progressed from in my 6+ years there from the new guy handling equipment at the beach/dock, to serving as one of its general managers. After the company closed its doors in the fall of 2001, I headed west to California, where I spent close to 7-years.

Now back in PA where it all began nearly 15-years later, I’ve found my long-lived hope of returning to the river business as a way of life reemerging stronger and clearer than ever before. I’d been hedging around my interest in doing this with the previous company owner and was getting a lukewarm response. So I decided to step things up a bit and started throwing a website together at my previously registered domain, Rivertribe.org.

I simultaneously emailed a bunch of former employees from the old river days and some new potential teammates while building out the site and renewing my discussions with the old boss. So far feedback has been good and the owner is more cooperative than before.

I’ve also partnered up with an old friend Cory, who has really taken to the Rivertribe concept and so we’ve been hammering away at all the details over the last week. It’s starting to get pretty intense, what with my other efforts at starting up the SolarHoster and maintaining my work with the fabric company, not to mention the still new tasks the baby has brought with his birthing.

Needless to say my time has been nearly completely devoured these last few weeks and I’ve been posting here less frequently than my previous goal, but that’s just how it goes sometimes.

Be sure to check Rivertribe.org and as always, can be found streaming bits away on Twitter.

Just noticed my blog is still running on pacific time. Guess there’s little point in switching it over now that we’ll probably only be around for another month, maybe less.

Just something to be aware of though.

I must vent. Now.

DistinctiveFabric.com, Inc. is tanking (or so Josh and I think), but what the hell do we really know anyway? We’ve only been running this damned thing for four and half years now and barely with any involvement from its founder and our chairman, Adam. Guess this is what you get for putting a couple of first-timers in executive seats and a declining economy. Ironically enough, our sales have only been going up since last August, but our previous debt carried over, coupled with an inconsistent cash flow, just hasn’t weathered the dip in December as well as we’d hoped and planned for.

SolarHoster.com is failing before it even runs.

InfinityDrive.net is failing. Again.

GreenGurus.net…is all the above and more: I can’t even log on or into the damn site.

The baby is due any day now and we’re broke. Tristan wants to move back to Cali. I want to stay and I want to go. I wanted so much to birth Rivertribe finally.

Now all of my business ideas are crumbling. And I can’t get a job because either:

1. My credit is so bad they won’t hire me
1a. I’m overqualified on paper due to past employment
2. I never finished school and got a degree and the necessary experience
3. The economy sucks ass cause the rest of this country shares in some of my misery

I’ve lost hundreds of keyword domains I never should have bought in the first place.

I’m now thirty freaking years old and my life is miserable. Okay not really. I still fight and fight and fight for success. I have no idea of what drives me. I had hoped to figure that out with a whole lot more in life before having a child.

Now what? God only knows. Actually, I’m now giving serious thought to starting up a church. A fucking church. Jesus Christ. I must be insane.

Either through “Order of the Jedi” – I now own orderofthejedi.net and jedichurch.net
Or through “Moon Temple” – I now own moontemple.org and moonchurch.org

I’m fucking crazy. I’ve always known it. And I always see people thinking the same freaking thing, even if they deny it when asked.

Well, if I’m crazy I might as well build my own crazy house, heh?
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Update 1.15 10:50am: Feeling a might bit better now. Course, the wee hours of the night often leave me despairing more so than the light of day.

Today I started sorting last weekends baby shower gifts for pre-washing, packing and storage (since some are for 6-12 months old). I was really kind of overwhelmed with how much has been given to us. I’m really thankful for everyone’s generosity.

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Well Tristan is definitely in the homestretch now up to the baby’s delivery, with an expected due date of January 22nd, leaving just two weeks and two days.

Interestingly, many babies are due on or around full or new moons. Interesting because her birthday is January 11th and the next full moon is January 10th, at 10:27pm, to be exact.

We just received our first diaper bag today as a gift from her sister Olivia; it’ll be packed tomorrow, along with Tristan’s overnight bag. Now we’re just waiting on the changing table, which we’ll help allow us to get some of the baby’s stuff organized.

Who knew someone who doesn’t even exist on its own needed so much stuff? It’s freaking crazy.

Anyway, the baby’s getting really, really active and driving Tristan nuts with his rapid, apparent chaotic movements. She’s even been starting to time her Braxton Hicks contractions pain. That and the fact that she’s been instructed to “get semen in there no matter how you do it”, to orgasm, and to start using evening primrose oil – all to weaken things up for the big show.

We’ve also discussed how our two cats, Storm and Luna, will behave once the baby’s here. We got rid of Elvis last week in preparation for his arrival but we’re not getting rid of the cats. Luna especially has Tristan concerned, as she’s very territorial, particular and possessive even of us at times.

Yes indeed: lights-camera-action aren’t that far around the bend at all. Unless of course, he’s late as some would say first-time baby/mothers are. Then again, that’s reportedly just a myth. Time will tell, heh?