JediWright.com

I must vent. Now.

DistinctiveFabric.com, Inc. is tanking (or so Josh and I think), but what the hell do we really know anyway? We’ve only been running this damned thing for four and half years now and barely with any involvement from its founder and our chairman, Adam. Guess this is what you get for putting a couple of first-timers in executive seats and a declining economy. Ironically enough, our sales have only been going up since last August, but our previous debt carried over, coupled with an inconsistent cash flow, just hasn’t weathered the dip in December as well as we’d hoped and planned for.

SolarHoster.com is failing before it even runs.

InfinityDrive.net is failing. Again.

GreenGurus.net…is all the above and more: I can’t even log on or into the damn site.

The baby is due any day now and we’re broke. Tristan wants to move back to Cali. I want to stay and I want to go. I wanted so much to birth Rivertribe finally.

Now all of my business ideas are crumbling. And I can’t get a job because either:

1. My credit is so bad they won’t hire me
1a. I’m overqualified on paper due to past employment
2. I never finished school and got a degree and the necessary experience
3. The economy sucks ass cause the rest of this country shares in some of my misery

I’ve lost hundreds of keyword domains I never should have bought in the first place.

I’m now thirty freaking years old and my life is miserable. Okay not really. I still fight and fight and fight for success. I have no idea of what drives me. I had hoped to figure that out with a whole lot more in life before having a child.

Now what? God only knows. Actually, I’m now giving serious thought to starting up a church. A fucking church. Jesus Christ. I must be insane.

Either through “Order of the Jedi” – I now own orderofthejedi.net and jedichurch.net
Or through “Moon Temple” – I now own moontemple.org and moonchurch.org

I’m fucking crazy. I’ve always known it. And I always see people thinking the same freaking thing, even if they deny it when asked.

Well, if I’m crazy I might as well build my own crazy house, heh?
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Update 1.15 10:50am: Feeling a might bit better now. Course, the wee hours of the night often leave me despairing more so than the light of day.

Well Tristan is definitely in the homestretch now up to the baby’s delivery, with an expected due date of January 22nd, leaving just two weeks and two days.

Interestingly, many babies are due on or around full or new moons. Interesting because her birthday is January 11th and the next full moon is January 10th, at 10:27pm, to be exact.

We just received our first diaper bag today as a gift from her sister Olivia; it’ll be packed tomorrow, along with Tristan’s overnight bag. Now we’re just waiting on the changing table, which we’ll help allow us to get some of the baby’s stuff organized.

Who knew someone who doesn’t even exist on its own needed so much stuff? It’s freaking crazy.

Anyway, the baby’s getting really, really active and driving Tristan nuts with his rapid, apparent chaotic movements. She’s even been starting to time her Braxton Hicks contractions pain. That and the fact that she’s been instructed to “get semen in there no matter how you do it”, to orgasm, and to start using evening primrose oil – all to weaken things up for the big show.

We’ve also discussed how our two cats, Storm and Luna, will behave once the baby’s here. We got rid of Elvis last week in preparation for his arrival but we’re not getting rid of the cats. Luna especially has Tristan concerned, as she’s very territorial, particular and possessive even of us at times.

Yes indeed: lights-camera-action aren’t that far around the bend at all. Unless of course, he’s late as some would say first-time baby/mothers are. Then again, that’s reportedly just a myth. Time will tell, heh?