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So I’m coming up on my 30th birthday in about 6 days, on December 29th. And it’s really hard to fathom in some ways.

On one hand, I feel much older than my 30 years of age, but in most cases, I feel much younger. I still feel like an older teenager or in my early twenties; I’ve felt like this probably since I was 22, I think. Now that my twenties are coming to a close, I’m forced to admit that this may be changing finally. My mind still feels that young in many respects, but physically, I have to admit I’m feeling my age. And I don’t like it.

I know of many shining examples in my west coast family (and some here back east) that have such a great mindset or something, keeping their youth, super active, super fun. I’m sure most of this all in our heads, but I haven’t found my own method of enacting this outlook yet.

I steadfastly refuse to go another year feeling this way though and will do whatever I have to to find and create my own methodology for eternal young-mindedness. Not only for my own sake/sanity/well-being but so too for my baby slated for arrival in under a month now.

I can’t imagine not being in the fittest shape of my life when he’s ready to play, I don’t want to disappoint and let him down in anyway…

Between my Saturn Return, my pending fatherhood and my big 3.0 coming down fast, it’s quite a bit to take in and process gleefully.