Time For Some Overly Due Venting
I must vent. Now.
DistinctiveFabric.com, Inc. is tanking (or so Josh and I think), but what the hell do we really know anyway? We’ve only been running this damned thing for four and half years now and barely with any involvement from its founder and our chairman, Adam. Guess this is what you get for putting a couple of first-timers in executive seats and a declining economy. Ironically enough, our sales have only been going up since last August, but our previous debt carried over, coupled with an inconsistent cash flow, just hasn’t weathered the dip in December as well as we’d hoped and planned for.
SolarHoster.com is failing before it even runs.
InfinityDrive.net is failing. Again.
GreenGurus.net…is all the above and more: I can’t even log on or into the damn site.
The baby is due any day now and we’re broke. Tristan wants to move back to Cali. I want to stay and I want to go. I wanted so much to birth Rivertribe finally.
Now all of my business ideas are crumbling. And I can’t get a job because either:
1. My credit is so bad they won’t hire me
1a. I’m overqualified on paper due to past employment
2. I never finished school and got a degree and the necessary experience
3. The economy sucks ass cause the rest of this country shares in some of my misery
I’ve lost hundreds of keyword domains I never should have bought in the first place.
I’m now thirty freaking years old and my life is miserable. Okay not really. I still fight and fight and fight for success. I have no idea of what drives me. I had hoped to figure that out with a whole lot more in life before having a child.
Now what? God only knows. Actually, I’m now giving serious thought to starting up a church. A fucking church. Jesus Christ. I must be insane.
Either through “Order of the Jedi” – I now own orderofthejedi.net and jedichurch.net
Or through “Moon Temple” – I now own moontemple.org and moonchurch.org
I’m fucking crazy. I’ve always known it. And I always see people thinking the same freaking thing, even if they deny it when asked.
Well, if I’m crazy I might as well build my own crazy house, heh?
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Update 1.15 10:50am: Feeling a might bit better now. Course, the wee hours of the night often leave me despairing more so than the light of day.
Ok, so I don’t know that I will be much help because I’m in a similar state as you. I seem to be perpetually broke and my debt increasing. I don’t go out much if at all anymore. So, I’m not meeting anyone new. I sit at home alone constantly. I have been in a funk this past week really bad. I have been feeling very lonely and depressed. None of my few friends ever seem to want to come over either. I usually have to go to them, if they can even make the time for me. I have been pondering things a lot and have been wondering what is the point? I own a condo, but don’t have anyone to share it with. I like going to the gym, but I still feel like shit half the time. I could ramble on and on but again, what is the point? The only thing I think will help us right now is to stop focusing on the negative. That is a big problem of mine, always has been. Maybe it is a Capricorn thing, I dunno. But I suppose maybe we should both watch the movie “The Secret” to start. I certainly need a refresher on the Law of Attraction because all I seem to be attracting right now is shit. Oh, and I was discussing these things with a spiritual adviser friend of mine and he suggested that when things don’t work out for you, then maybe you are following the wrong path. He gave me some other good insights. I can share them with you if you’d like.